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Monday, May 30, 2005
sir jumalon : the mocking bird
Our assesment finally ended yesterday...it was easier than the classes ms vie gave us so the nervousness quickly left...although the exercises wasn't the one that scred me...its his eyes!...You might be wondering who is "his" here, its our examiner. Sir Jumalon is the examiner...pretty scary...the eyes its like mocking me...that's why i branded him "mocking bird" taken from EMINem's song....kahit tapos na siya...kinakabahan pa rin ako...katakot talaga siya!...hay...well...after the assesment...i went home then...ate lots of choco ice cream...then church...then eat..again!...after that mon and i chated...the topic: #1 fan!(if u can't relate see my past entry) ...sobrang natawa ako sa pinagusapan nmin...di ko na-ipaste dito!...sa amin na lng yun...!(:(:...pero ang masabi ko is that our conversation really made me laugh and smile:):)...in short...it made my day!!....whahaahhaaahahha....so there u go....:):)
Thursday, May 26, 2005
a chapter begins...
this summer one chappie of my life ended...that included my wtc classes...(below u can see the friends ive met...and oh...the guitar ai'nt mine...!)...swimming escapades, ballet stress for the upcoming assesment that would be on sunday! although the whole summer events wasn't the one i expected it went well all except for the bumpy roads and overwhelming stress...as they say "if there is expectation there will never be thrill"...my whole summer was lived through that quote!...and honestly it was "great!" w/ the big "!". That was summer 2005 and after two more weeks it would be school year 2005!...ill be honest with u that this school year is not somehting i am excited of...mainly because of my section! and the fact that i would have to depart with my friends. You may think that the whole resectioning thing is nothing...but as mon had said "iba pa rin pag-classmates tayu"...tama siya!. It would always be different...! There would be no more "pasaway episodes" we have between each other...no more mon-mon and efrel and ikai...
no matter what you say or on what perspective you see it...things would never be the same...
i just hope that the rivalry of sections wont affect us...definetely not...we are mooch...we are different!...though "there would be slight changes" as mon had said...again!...well...there you go...a certain chapter has ended...and another chappie will begin...and all i can do is hope...and hope...and hope...!
wala...palipas oras...wahahah
my wtc friends..left to right: april, nica, denize, jp, ron, hazel, ako, sandie, jamie
jaime nd i
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
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....whahahahah...a woman gone wrong...no..correction...a woman gone mad!!!....just another kodak moment!!..wahahahahah
Friday, May 20, 2005
THE ASS WIPER
Now, why the hell would I let myself be called an ass wiper...its because of what im feelin...
i hate the fact that the admin reshuffled us!...my goodness...do they honestly know what type of nervous wreckness they made us go through??..huh???...im actually criticizing their way of thinking...do they honestly believe that our "wicked ways" would change if they reshuffle us?...nu uh!...it will onlt make us rebel!...duh! i wanna whope their asses of what they did!...that's why im called an ass wiper!...ill wipe their freakin'-good-for-nothing-asses!!
*please remember that i am in my anger state...all these words are coming from my deepest anger towards them!...
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
this is a very depressing creation i made...after readin pls tag! ty! warning: deals with pain...
breath
Its not pain im feeling
Its loneliness
A void or an empty space
that you once occupied.
There's a big hole of depression that came to me
Asking if I want to die?
Do I want to die?
I don't know what possesed me or what kind of hatred
pushed me to do the unthinkable,
But the only sound I heard was not of rational belief.
I heard the piercing silence of the blade rushing through flesh
...my flesh.
A rush of blood from my wrist came through.
Then there was only darkness.
Mere seconds had passed before I heard screaming,
calling me back.
After that there was nothing
...saw nothing...heard nothing...
I woke up and stared on these white walls.
For the first time in a million moments...
I felt innocent.
Innocent from the piercing blade and crimson blood
that I ompted to take.
For a moment I thought of who to blame...
my friends...no
my family...not ever
then came...you.
The sole reason of my depression and insolent thoughts.
The one that drove me to pierce my skin by the omnious blade.
All my mistakes was focused on blaming you...
But come to think of it...maybe the reason why you left is because
I wasn't good enough
You left because I was not the one you were looking for.
I sigh.
All these thoughts are making me sick like a blade punctured through my brain.
For now I will sleep and let darkness claim me in a safe way.
Those were my lat thoughts until sleep finally came in.
breath
Its not pain im feeling
Its loneliness
A void or an empty space
that you once occupied.
There's a big hole of depression that came to me
Asking if I want to die?
Do I want to die?
I don't know what possesed me or what kind of hatred
pushed me to do the unthinkable,
But the only sound I heard was not of rational belief.
I heard the piercing silence of the blade rushing through flesh
...my flesh.
A rush of blood from my wrist came through.
Then there was only darkness.
Mere seconds had passed before I heard screaming,
calling me back.
After that there was nothing
...saw nothing...heard nothing...
I woke up and stared on these white walls.
For the first time in a million moments...
I felt innocent.
Innocent from the piercing blade and crimson blood
that I ompted to take.
For a moment I thought of who to blame...
my friends...no
my family...not ever
then came...you.
The sole reason of my depression and insolent thoughts.
The one that drove me to pierce my skin by the omnious blade.
All my mistakes was focused on blaming you...
But come to think of it...maybe the reason why you left is because
I wasn't good enough
You left because I was not the one you were looking for.
I sigh.
All these thoughts are making me sick like a blade punctured through my brain.
For now I will sleep and let darkness claim me in a safe way.
Those were my lat thoughts until sleep finally came in.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
my latest creation...heheeh..cheesy siya....baka ma-cornyhan kayu...ah basta!
OBLIVION
by: Angeli Pangilinan
Blurry of thoughts surrounds me
An aura of distinction covers me through
A surge of pain comes flowing in...
Its all because of you
The excruciating doubt you put me through
The wounds who are now scars of empty words and promises remains
Sometimes I wonder if there's still a spark that exist
Or wold it cease its existance on the face of the earth
Why hope when there is nothing left...
Its all because of you
How hard it is to let go love
When that love you hold is the only thing you know
Why suffer when you cna say goodby...but NO...
Its becuase I love you
...again...
Its al because of you
These words may never be "said" through speech
But my heart tells me otherwise to simply do it and say goodbye
But...I have no courage because I'm a coward
So I swallow these "words" and move on
Because I love you...
For the third time in a row
I'll say it again...
Its all because of you
When goodbye is the only escape for forever's pain to go away
I'll take it, risking the chance of life spent without you
Life is nothing without love
But do I have a choice?
A pain from you or the pain without you?
Either way...I loose...
And again for the last time...
Its all because of you
by: Angeli Pangilinan
Blurry of thoughts surrounds me
An aura of distinction covers me through
A surge of pain comes flowing in...
Its all because of you
The excruciating doubt you put me through
The wounds who are now scars of empty words and promises remains
Sometimes I wonder if there's still a spark that exist
Or wold it cease its existance on the face of the earth
Why hope when there is nothing left...
Its all because of you
How hard it is to let go love
When that love you hold is the only thing you know
Why suffer when you cna say goodby...but NO...
Its becuase I love you
...again...
Its al because of you
These words may never be "said" through speech
But my heart tells me otherwise to simply do it and say goodbye
But...I have no courage because I'm a coward
So I swallow these "words" and move on
Because I love you...
For the third time in a row
I'll say it again...
Its all because of you
When goodbye is the only escape for forever's pain to go away
I'll take it, risking the chance of life spent without you
Life is nothing without love
But do I have a choice?
A pain from you or the pain without you?
Either way...I loose...
And again for the last time...
Its all because of you
Sunday, May 01, 2005
THIS ENTRY IS NOTHING BUT NONESENSE BLABBER...
Currently listening to nina's "love moves in mysterious way". I was actually planning on listening to "same ground" by kitchie nadal. Unfrotunately my ever-so-complicated-comp decided to play me as a fool and won't play it......In the first place, why am i listening to kitchie's "same ground"? I never liked Kitchie Nadal's voice but I got so into the lyrics that I did not notice that I was already singing it in the shower...eheheh...LSS!
Anyway...so many things had happened these past few days. The reason I wasn't able to update this blog of mine becasue of my brother. He was confined in Capitol Medical last friday until saturday night because of viral infection. But I think he's okay now, so no worries. Back to Kitchie Nadal...the song "same ground" really has powerful lyrics that even non-kitchie fans got attracted to...specially me.
YES! finally the cd worked! So..here I am..back to listening "same ground acoustic version.
Currently listening to nina's "love moves in mysterious way". I was actually planning on listening to "same ground" by kitchie nadal. Unfrotunately my ever-so-complicated-comp decided to play me as a fool and won't play it...
Anyway...so many things had happened these past few days. The reason I wasn't able to update this blog of mine becasue of my brother. He was confined in Capitol Medical last friday until saturday night because of viral infection. But I think he's okay now, so no worries. Back to Kitchie Nadal...the song "same ground" really has powerful lyrics that even non-kitchie fans got attracted to...specially me.
YES! finally the cd worked! So..here I am..back to listening "same ground acoustic version.
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